Painted in Black

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I’m bleeding

broken in the inside

crawling on the floor

with no place to hide.

I feel wasted,

sadness is present

like the moon in the night.

I’ve no place

to hide

or live

or play,

I’ve no place

to run.

But I continue dragging the car

made with two heels

and a cardboard box.

I don’t know where I’m going,

I’ve no direction

no future

no life.

My destiny is painted in black

and the clowns

are laughing at me

Because I’m the lower being

of the earth and

space.

Doors are closing in front of my eyes

and everything around me

is blood and

melancholy.

I wish I could be a star

to shine at night,

a continuos night

evaporating with meds.

My heart is ripped in two

my mind

my soul

What I am ?

Who I am ?

I’m not that being

dancing in the dark.

22 thoughts on “Painted in Black

    • thank you, I wish I could write something more possitive or at last not sad, but life is eating me from the inside, and, like I wrote, I feel like I have no place to hide.

  1. i cant help but to feel a sense of loss on reading this nerve-raking poetry,i know the feeling, some times the feelings are too shameful to write about,some times they issue with such violence that one is left drained and lost.than you.

    • yes, me, like everyone, have my ups and downs. I can’t really remember how I felt when I wrote this poem, but I’m pretty sure I felt like trash. Thanks God now I’m feeling better … Thank you for the comment.

  2. Always hope in God as we needn’t hide in the melancholy. Recognize it and then glorify the goodness in our life. Not wishing to start a theological debate, but, for me, Jesus turned my dark soul inside-out. I see the darkness as a memory. It is all Light now, clear and present.

    He is for all hopeless giving Love, the sword that cuts all darkness and pain.

    • thank you for the comment.You know, I want to believe, but I don’t know how to do it, I mean 50 % of me believe in God, while the other 50 % is a complete atheist … I think I’m stable, 50/50.

      • I can help you believe 100% by telling you the highest form of Love is Jesus as told in the Bible, we are commanded to love all people and God with this form of love by Jesus, and in faith and commitment, He will appear in our heart eternally. Thanks for responding. Please consider what I say, store it away for a time when you may call His name in quiet solitude. Be blessed. Love and Peace in Jesus. I wish all the best for you.

    • thank you for comment. Like I told in another reply, I don’t really remember how I felt when I wrote this, but I think I felt like trash. Thanks God now I’m feeling better.

  3. I would like to 2nd Rick, although your writing is quite good, there is much much more to life.
    My mother was a Leo, and not a lover of Christ, but Christ is my life since 2006. I have peace within even with my daily ups and downs, and hope more find the peace that is needed in their life too.

  4. I have days where the black curtain has descended too. Not half as much as I used to. Writing helps me to pick up a pitchfork and force it back. Writing does definitely help. If you also need a decent ( if not slightly large) ears. Just holler.
    Good luck and well done on vocalising it so succinctly.
    C.p.

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